Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Songs which Remind Me....

There are a few songs which always remind of a few stars whom have committed suicide..whenever i hear these songs, i always remember them and feel sad that they've decided to kill themselves and end their lives prematurely...

張國榮《追》 - 金枝玉葉

I never understood why Leslie Cheung killed himself on April 1st 2003. He was like the brightest star in Chinese pop and cinema. He had an amazing career being at one point the most popular Chinese singer during the late 80s and had many memorable film roles, the most famous being arguably his role as the homosexual Chinese opera singer in Chen Kai-ge's 'Fairwell My Concubine'. He had money, love, and friends as well as fans whom loved him and spanned all age groups. I just never understood why. They said it was because of depression, but he was so famous, so loved by fans and movie world friends alike, would it have become so serious? I mean he had some of the most well-known friends in HK entertainment circles, being close to super icons like Brigette Lin Hsin Hsia and Lydia Sum..and had so much wealth...and he had a very good looking partner whom he was in a long term relationship for over a decade..i first saw the partner's pictures when Leslie died and newspapers posted his pictures..he was very good looking for his age..early 40s i think..and even if another rumour was true, that they had relationship problems because Leslie had another new relationship with a younger hunk whom was working at one of Brigette Lin's Esprit shops in Hong Kong...shouldn't it be his partner whom should have been more likely to commit suicide not Leslie, whom effectively had two incredibly good looking men in his life, one younger and one whom he's spent over a decade with??

Anyways, whenever i hear this song from the movie 'She's a Man, He's a Woman' I always feel like ALWAYS reminds me of Leslie Cheung and how i grew up watching video tapes of his old movies..sniff sniff..the lyrics are extremely moving in this song and the film, which was a huge box office success, was a thinly veiled reflection of his real life at the time and his relationship with his partner..:(

Since I Met You:
The beginning of this Korean drama always tears me as well as I remember the first time i saw Choi Jin Sil and watched a whole 50 episodes (the length of this drama!) of her...the opening sequence is always etched in my mind..its so sad...she killed herself as well in 2008, leaving two children behind. Once again, I lament at the unnecessary loss of life. She was once Korea's Sweetheart, being the most popular Korean TV drama actress in the mid-90s. She had such fame and money and although her career was going down by 2008, she should have clearly cherished what she had right? I mean most actresses don't even ever get to earn as much or become as famous as Choi was...its sad..i never understand her suicide as well..yes, everyone has problems, including Choi, i just don't see the problems being so insurmountable...i mean if the average beaten up woman with two kids and financial problems can live it out, i don't see how wealthy Choi Jin Sil with all her former fame and family support couldn't get pass what she was going through..:(

The song below (no one dies this time!) just reminds me of my primary childhood days hanging out with my mother's Taiwanese friends and living within the Taiwanese community in Penang...looking back, I never really led a normal 'Malaysian life' during my years in Penang, I had always led an expat life, surrounded by a variety of foreign schoolmates and Taiwanese expats, friends of my parents...the song below, which i had randomly found on youtube a couple of days before, ignited my memories of the Taiwanese expat childhood i had in Penang, Malaysia: